Ade (agentfroot) wrote,

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I couldn't sleep this morning since the landscaping people came to cut up and take away the half-tree on our lawn. And then Katie came home from camp, as chatty and hyper as usual. I finally managed to get to sleep in the early afternoon, and my parents unsuccessfully tried to wake me up at night. I finally woke to the sound of fireworks at 11, so I sat at my window and watched the distant fireworks (they were probably in Export - sometimes during the summer I can see fireworks coming from the east or northeast or wherever). I had a dream where I kept trying to go to this giant hot tub supposedly at my aunt's house, but these obstacles kept popping up, and people kept coming in the room so I could never get any privacy. Oh well.

1. I am happiest when:
I'm with a small group of people I feel comfortable with and we're all having a great time

2. I feel lonely when:
It's summer, my friends are all away/busy, and all I do is sit in my room (I have a job now, so I don't feel that lonely any more, even though I haven't seen any of my friends in over a week)

3. The ideal relationship would be:
For me, it would probably be with someone who lives a couple streets away (within walking distance but not too close) that I could hang out with 3 or 4 times a week with, and we could talk, snuggle, play video games, and have fun together. Basically like a good friend with romantic benefits. I don't want to end up so deeply in love with someone that I become emotionally dependent, and I like my space. If I ever end up getting married, I'd want to have my own room because I need my "me" space - but there would be a third bedroom for recreational activities and snuggling and stuff.

4. Favorite movie (s):
I have a lot. Hedwig and the Angry Inch, Sister Act, Shrek, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, My Big Fat Greek Wedding, Lilo and Stitch, Labyrinth, Twins, etc.

5. Favorite author:
JK Rowling and Jean Auel

6. What makes you cry:
I can't watch Lilo and Stitch without crying. I also get snivelly when I get really angry and frustrated (if someone else is in the room, I usually end up storming off so I can calm down by myself) and when I feel rejected and alone and people treat me like less of a person.

7. Introvert or extrovert:
Definitely an introvert

8. Do you think too much:
Yes, that's why I'm so quiet. I can't think and talk at the same time, and I have to think before I say something because I always end up saying something stupid, shocking, or offensive, and then I feel like an idiot. My brain never shuts down, except when I actually need it for something like writing or test-taking. Gaaahhhhh...

9. If you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be:
I think the English countryside would be a delightful place to live... maybe in an old castle with a few modern technologies like electricity and plumbing. I want a horse in my backyard, dammit!

10. A famous person you would like to meet:
Tori Amos! I think it would be neat to go to a little sandwich shop with her, and we could have lunch and tea and sit there and talk for several hours. She's an amazing woman, and I'd like to get to know her more.

11. Do you believe in organized religion:
Well... it has its benefits, but it can also be a nasty thing. Let's take the most obvious example - Christianity. It has a ton of different subreligions like Catholicism, Unitarian Universalism, Methodism (I'm just adding "ism" to everything so I don't know if that's really what they're called), Episcopalianism, Quakerism, Mormonism, Jehovah's Witnessism, etc. They're all very different, and they all have their ups and downs. For example, the Catholic church. It has a nasty history of killing people and discriminating against just about everyone except straight, white, celibate-except-in-marriage, devout Catholics. And then there's the recent issue of pedophile priests. But the church is also a community. People with similar beliefs and backgrounds can get together and feel like they belong somewhere. The church helps those in need, and it services the community. So you have to look at both sides of organized religions to really understand them. As for me, I'm an eclectic solitary Wiccan who makes my own rules and beliefs (they're based on Wicca but don't strongly adhere to it), so I don't belong to an organized religion. My religion suits me just fine, and some people feel very comfortable in organized religions. Everyone is different, so there isn't a single religion that can satisfy everyone on the planet.

12. Pro-life or pro-choice:
I'd say I'm pro-life but not anti-abortion. I believe it's wrong to destroy life unless it's necessary (for example, killing a cow because you want to eat it is ok, but it's wrong to squish a spider because you're afraid of it). Sometimes abortion is necessary. Abortion is ok in situations like rape, very risky pregnancies, the mother can't afford to raise the child but wouldn't put it up for adoption, etc. But it's not ok to abort a baby becaus you were stupid enough to have unprotected sex and you just don't want a baby. Abortion should be safe, legal, and extremely rare.

13. Are you a vegetarian:
Nope. I don't eat meat very much though, simply because it starts to taste bad if I have more than just a small portion. I like chicken, shrimp, and beef, but I avoid fish, pork (except for a little bacon once in a while), mutton, and most other meats. I love chicken sandwiches...

14. Do you support the death penalty:
No, you have no right to kill someone unless it's in extreme defense of yourself or someone else.

15. Do angels or demons exist:
Sort of, but not in the traditional sense. I don't believe in the heaven/hell thing, and I refuse to believe in Satan or any sort of dark lord. I think angels and demons are spirits representing the good and bad sides of humanity, and they're in charge of maintaining a healthy balance.

16. What would you most like to be doing right now:
Playing the Sims or Age of Mythology, even though I should be reading, writing, critiquing, and preparing myself for Alpha... though I bet the other Alphans are being as lazy as me and won't do any reading or critiquing until the night before the workshop anyway... *grins*

17. Do you have any regrets:
Of course. I regret being mean to people, especially in junior high. Sure I had tons of problems and took them out on others to make myself feel better, but that's no excuse for what I did. I was cruel, and I'll have to carry that guilt with me forever.

18. Sex or love:
Well, they have their ups and downs... I guess love is good (with a little sex thrown in to make it interesting)

19. Favorite coffee:
Ick, I hate coffee. But mochas are yummy once in a while, provided they're nice and chocolatey and not too bitter.

20. Brand of cigarettes:
Cigarettes are evil. They're slow suicide.

21. Favorite scent:
Grass, dirt, yummy foods, and this vanilla perfume this girl has that drives me nuts every time she passes me (I'm not interested in her or anything, but there must be some pheromones in that perfume... holy cow...)

22. What REALLY makes you mad:
When I want to be alone but people won't grant me my privacy. Then I morph into an uberbitch and scare people.

23. Favorite way to waste time:
*pats computer*

26. What is your best quality:
I'm nice and have a great imagination.

27. Are you currently in love/lust:
Nah... not really.

28. What's the craziest thing you have ever done:
Oh man... this one is tricky. Well, when I was 6 or 7, I was on a ski trip with my family and some family friends up at Pico in Vermont. A bunch of the adults were standing around at the top of the mountain, waiting for other adults, and I got impatient. I decided to go off by myself, so I skiied straight down the mountain without any poles. About halfway down the mountain, my mom noticed that I was skiing at warp 6 and screamed at my uncle to go stop me. So he skiied as fast as he could, but he couldn't catch up. Luckily I reached the bottom alive without crashing into anyone or anything, but I really freaked everyone out. My dad was the one who got yelled at, even though he was in the hotel room at the time, watching my baby sister and studying for his night school or whatever he was doing. My mom blamed him, since he never taught me how to ski properly (in ski school they only teach you how to slowly follow a line of kids while keeping your skis in a pie-shape). My poor dad always gets blamed for things he has no control over...

30. Any bad habits:
Oh yes... playing games when I should be doing homework or cleaning my room, yanking out my hair, etc.

31. Do you find it hard to trust people:
Usually. But some people just feel trustworthy... I follow my hunches.

32. Do you ever doubt yourself:
Yeah, all the time. And then I never accomplish anything because I can't make up my mind.

33. Last book you read:
Part of "Paragons" last night

34. Last thing you bought for yourself:
Probably some food from the vending machines at work

35. Bath or shower:
Showers are nice... I like to feel the hot water beating on my back.

36. Favorite season:
Winter, though Pennsylvania winters are unpredictable and bipolar

37. Porn or erotica:
Porn is silly and often just plain gross. Erotica is nicer - it's more emotional and you don't have people constantly screaming "suck me, bitch!"

38. What is your favorite flavor:
Raspberry and strawberry

39. What is your favorite time of day:
Late afternoon and early evening

40. Gold or silver:
Silver is niftier.

41. What is the lamest pickup line someone has used on you:
Well, back in junior high and high school, these idiot boys would come up to me and say, "My friend here wants to go out with you," while their friends would be laughing and screaming, "No, no, he's lying!" Meanypantses...

42. Silk sheets or cotton:
Cotton is comfier... but velvet... ooh...

43. Any secret crushes:
None in particular

44. Do you ever feel you are insane:
I'm a writer, I'm supposed to be insane

45. Favorite style of music:
I like lots of stuff... particularly meaningful songs with a fun beat sung by someone with a nice voice

46. Favorite film genre:
Gender-bending musicals! Yeah! I put on some makeup 'cause I'm just a sweet transvestite...

47. If you could be the opposite sex for one day, would you do it:
Yeah! It would be fun, but I'd probably forget to use the mens room and end up getting kicked out of places (plus, mens rooms almost always stink). I'd also run around topless just for the fun of it, even though I'd still have a big white belly.

48.What do you desire most in life:
Feeling important, like I helped change the world or at least someone's life... and books can often do that, so writers can be very influential people.

49. Do you believe in destiny:
Yup! I also believe in Dream, Desire, Despair, Destruction, Death, and Delirium! Neil Gaiman writes the most believable yet unconventional characters...

50. Is world peace attainable:
No, because there will always be mean and stupid people to screw it up. As Laura once said, "there will never be peace until we're all dead."

51. City or country:
Cities are intimidating. The countryside is nicer and friendlier, and there are fewer people.

52. Are you more inclined to set short or long term goals for yourself?:
Short term, because my long-term plans tend to change every other year or so. Right now I plan to be a big name in young adult fantasy but live quietly as an old cat lady.

Here's an article about Tourette syndrome and masturbation from an email newsletter I received. I'm glad I don't have this problem...

This is an adult subject and may not be suitable for all readers.
It is provided for the many sexual problems and function in relation
to Tourette Syndrome and is for informational purposes only. If you
are not sure what this means, then STOP READING HERE AND GO ASK YOUR
Because the neurotransmitters such as acetylcholine, dopamine and
serotonin are involved in the provided information I thought it
might shed some light on those that have sent in questions regarding
Masturbation and Tourette Syndrome.

Fatal Consequences of Excessive Masturbation

Frequent masturbation and ejaculation stimulate
acetylcholine/parasympathetic nervous functions excessive can result
in over production of sex hormones and neurotransmitters such as
acetylcholine, dopamine and serotonin. Abundant and unusually amount
of these hormones and neurotransmitters can cause the brain and
adrenal glands to perform excessive dopamine-norepinephrine-
epinephrine conversion and turn the brain and body functions to be
extremely sympathetic. Other words, there is a big change of body
chemistry when one excessively masturbation.

The side effects of such changes to the body include:

Fatigue. Feeling tired all the time
Lower back pain
Stress / Anxiety
Thinning hair / Hair Loss
Soft / Weak Erection
Premature Ejaculation
Eye floaters or fuzzy vision
Groin / Testicular Pain
Pain or cramp in the pelvic cavity or/and tail bone

If above symptoms are experienced, you need to restore the balance
of brain's acetylcholine / parasympathetic ratio, reduces the level
of sex hormones in the body, and sedates sympathetic nervous
function, or the symptoms would become worsen.

Over-masturbaters would experience problems with concentration and
memory. This is a dangerous side effect of over-masturbation and
signals that the brain is being over drained of acetycholine. Over-
masturbating can also drain the motor nerves, neuro-muscular
endings, and tissues of acetycholine and replace it with too much
stress adrenalin which is where absentmindedness, memory loss, lack
of concentration, and eye floaters come from. To fight these
symptoms, the chemical levels in your body needs to be balanced.

Notice a pattern yet? The plethora of problems associated with over-
masturbation come from the fact that your body is drained of
important nutrients and hormones.
Mitchell McNiff, M.D.
Dr. Mitchell McNiff, M.D. is a board certified urologist who
received his specialized fellowship training in Male Reproductive
Medicine and Surgery and Male Erectile Dysfunction at UCLA Medical
Center. He is also the Medical Director of C.A.Z.T. Laboratories, a
laboratory that specializes in Fertility Testing and Sperm Banking.

Editors Comments
To understand why this is relevant information, you need to
refer to your information on the effects of Neurotransmitters and
Tourette Syndrome. In shot if there is a shortage of these then one
could see why there may be an increase or excessiveness of
masturbation or other sexual side effects in those dealing with
Tourette Syndorme.
There is good information about Tourette Syndrome and
Neurotransmitters in several books including
Tourette Syndrome and Human Behavior by Dr. David E. Comings
Here is a site with some relevant online information about
Neurotransmiters and Tourette Syndrome.

Paul Marshall PhD


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