The garden is thriving. The broccoli is ready to harvest, but of course I'm the only one here to eat it. Oh well - that's what neighbors are for. I also picked a bell pepper and some zucchini. I don't really like peppers or zucchini, but I like zucchini bread. So I whipped out the cookbook and made some darn good zucchini nut muffins. Yes, I baked without setting off the smoke detector. Yeehaw! Now I just have to load all the dishes and bowls and stuff into the dishwasher and then clean up the kitchen. I should do more cooking, it's fun.
I started taking Paxil, and so far it seems ok. I haven't had any major side effects yet (sometimes I feel queasy though). My neurologist wanted me to take it to help the social anxiety and rare panic attacks (I haven't had one in a few months, and before that, I hadn't had one since my senior year, but apparently my neurologist took them a bit too seriously). Of course, I'm alone most of the time so I don't know if it's helping the social anxiety. Though I did see one of my mom's friends at Giant Eagle yesterday and talked to her for a little while without freaking out. But something else is happening. I started taking Paxil the night I returned from Confluence. I was crushingly depressed that afternoon and evening since Alpha was just amazing and I didn't want it to end. I fell asleep that night feeling lonely and sad, but in the morning I felt a little better. I should have slept more, but Moccasin kept waking me up. Anyway, yesterday it seemed like the cloud of sadness had lifted and I felt better. I was still kind of lonely and missed Alpha terribly, but it was a major improvement from how I felt on Sunday. Of course, Paxil is an antidepressant so I'm not surprised that it improved my general mood. Well, we'll see how this goes. In a few weeks, I have to go back to the neurologist and get a brain scan or something weird like that. Weee.
Ack, I had 4 muffins already (they're mini-muffins), and I'm craving more. I didn't put anything addictive into them, really! Must be the cinnamon