Nick is encouraging me to go to the counseling center. I don't know... I don't think it will help, since I have trouble opening up to people. I went freshman year, but it really didn't do anything for me. I just sat there and rambled about all sorts of stuff, like the musicals Megan and I wrote in 9th grade and stuff like that. I didn't talk about deeper issues or anything, though I was struggling with social anxiety. I remember one time I got all excited because someone I barely knew at the time (I think it was Nick, actually) sat with me at dinner, and at the time I was still cripplingly terrified of interacting with males. I told my counselor, "I had dinner with a BOY yesterday!" and she gave me this amused look and said "Oooh!" I was just thrilled that I was getting over my fear of males and didn't panic when a guy I barely knew sat with me at dinner. So I did make progress there. Anyway, I'm debating whether I should go back... am I just being stubborn and unwilling to change? Hmmm. Nick said he wants to help... which is sweet of him, but I wish I could just let myself be helped. Bah.
So... we'll see. Oh, heck... maybe I should start listening to other people.
Should I go to the counseling center?