January 29th, 2002

"I'm a nun - I'm a penguin!"

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i'm waiting for my clothes to come out of the dryer. i actually organized some of my school papers today, and i was going to do homework but carrie turned on the tv and we're watching "days of our lives." it's so stupid and shallow and nobody has a sense of humor, but my eyes are drawn to the "magic pictures" on the tv. cartoons are better.
tonight i have fencing, i'm fairly excited. poke poke poke slash whack hey that's not allowed! oh well. british accents are sexy. i wonder if i should take some idol-may. nah.
i think i'm going to go back to watching tv, even though it's pointless. the damn phone keeps ringing, and it's never for me. so i never pick it up unless i recognize the number as belonging to a friend or family member. i wonder if i should dye my hair purple.
and so those are my shallow thoughts for the day. i was in a deep-thinking mood earlier but now there's not much going on inside my head (for once). i turned off the tv since carrie left and it's destroying my mind.
"i've been a wallflower before, but this is ridiculous!"
-velma
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    fart
"I'm a nun - I'm a penguin!"

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woohoo, i just got back from fencing. that was... invigorating. the full moon last night was gorgeous, it just made me feel so happy and i went outside and talked to Her for a while. it kicked my biological clock back in time, too.
i actually have plans for tonight other than sitting at the computer. i'm so thrilled, since i never leave the room (except to eat, go potty, go to class, fence, etc.). i just sit here like a lump. but that's changing.
i've just been in a good mood this past week. i thought i was going to be so depressed and lonely when i came back after winter break, but i'm not. this is good. though i do miss my friends terribly and i feel like a part of me is dying since i don't have the strong support. they're still there for me and everything and we talk on the phone and email, but there's still the "separation anxiety." i'm horrible at making new friends, but i'm eventually getting there. i have a few friends here, just so-so ones, not really-deep-connected ones like i have at home. i suppose a lot of freshmen (or first-year students, to be politically correct) feel this way, but i'm socially retarded so it makes it even worse.
but anyway, i'm happy. a little hungry but happy. must be going now.
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    for some reason, i have "adia" stuck in my head