3 pages of a 5-6 page paper finished! whew! i have a serious issue with distractions and writing papers. i can only concentrate on writing them if it's the night before they're due or the MORNING they're due. i sat down to work on my paper early this evening, sat around and dawdled for 3 hours (repeatedly checking my email, fussing with my hair, thinking "you DORK, you're not going to get any sleep and you'll be a cranky bitch tomorrow," and accomplishing nothing. but i managed to write 3 pages. now i'm going to bed, and i set my alarm for 5. by that time i'll be motivated to write more. then i can finish the damn thing, dash to a computer lab and print it (my printer is having issues with ink as always - i HATE the damn printer and wish it would be nice and WORK when i tell it to like its good sister scanner does...), and turn it in by 11. if i'm really good about working, i can fit a shower and breakfast in there. i'm giving myself 6 hours tomorrow. i know it will take me about an hour to get out of bed, turn the computer on, and get out of "drunk" mode (i always act like i'm drunk for the first hour after i wake up... i can't talk right, i bump into walls, and i'm grouchy). then i'll sit there for another hour while checking my email and thinking, PAPER, you idiot! then i'll look at the clock, panic, and BS my way through the last 2-3 pages before throwing on some clothing, dashing to a computer lab, finding that their printers have issues, going to another lab and waiting 10 minutes while the printer prints out everyone else's papers first, then finally getting to class in the nick of time and finding that some overachiever swiped my seat in the front. it happens every time! and yes, i have to be a nerd and sit in front. if i don't sit in front, i can't see the board (damn tall people with big heads and poofy hair...), and i don't pay attention as much. it's my lovely little "i'm going to get a B in this class even if i'm paranoid that he's watching my every move" strategy. but it's working, i think i'm getting a B in brit. lit.
bed, ade! BED! i have a very busy day ahead of me even after the paper is over with.
awwwww... for once in my life, i actually miss church. you see, i got 4 1/2 hours of sleep thanks to working on my paper (i finished it, managed to fix my printer, print it, and get to class EARLY and turn it in!). i got a 16/20 on my quiz, so i was happy, but i was feeling kinda grouchy and burnt out thanks to sleep deprivation and straining my mind at 5:30 am. well, i went to check my mail and found i had a package. cool! well, the kids at the church i used to go to sent me a big package of goodies! they sent me lots of snacks (just when i was worried i'd run out), pencils, post-it notes (i really needed some), a cute card, and other stuff. wow. i was almost moved to tears. just last night i was falling asleep, praying that i'd finish the paper in time, praying a friend of mine would be all right (i think she's in the hospital for something serious), and hoping everything would turn out ok. the package came at a perfect time, just when i needed a boost. sure, i'm not christian, i always hated to go to church, and i felt uncomfortable there, but the people there were nice, and the kids were fun. i don't know a lot of the younger kids (i'm mostly familiar with the kids around my sister's age, who are now preteens and teenagers), but i recognized a couple that signed the card, and they're fun kids. sigh... now i'm homesick. i wanted to go home next weekend and get away from here for a few days anyway. wow. i'm just grinning all over the place now. who cares if i still have a stressful day ahead of me? i'm loved!
oh gosh, i'm making myself cry now. i'll have to send the kids a thank you note. a big one. yes folks, there is a God who listens. sure, there's a difference between the christian one and the wiccan one, but they're both part of that big incomprehensible almighty "thing" that takes care of us.
well, this afternoon i'll be raking leaves with a couple argo folks, then a bunch of other activities. HOPEFULLY i'll get to bed at a decent hour, so i can be all restified tomorrow. what's going on tomorrow? anything? i don't know. saturdays are usually pretty uneventful and stress-free. maybe i'll use the time to catch up on things like doing the dishes, writing letters, and stuff like that. or i'll sit around and play computer games all day. or both. next week shouldn't be AS stressful (a few projects here and there), so that's good.
well, i wore myself out today. anita, good tom, and i went to rake leaves at this lady's house, and i jumped in one of the leaf piles for old time's sake. a twig scratched my leg, but that's ok. and my palms got all stingy and itchy too, but i bet i just have dry skin this time of year. yes, i know i should use moisturizer, but i can't stand the feel of lotion or gooey stuff on my skin. it just feels wrong. anyway, i went to anime night. yay.
now for some bad news. my older friend nina had a minor stroke on sunday. fortunately she's ok, and she's out of the hospital, but it's still a terrible, scary thing. i'm so worried about her. it seems like every bad thing in the world happens to her. she doesn't deserve it! *hollers* IT'S NOT FAIR!!!!!!! why do such terrible things have to happen to such nice people? grrrrr... i think i need to do some healing work. no spells or anything, just heavy duty prayer and energy work.
well, it's the weekend, my paper is turned in, and all would be well if my friends were all well, but i seem to gravitate towards people with "chronic issue syndrome," and nobody is ever ok! i love my friends though. they kick ass, even if they're depressed a lot.
ooh, i have a phone message! yay!