- I was apparently living in this big dorm, and my room was next to Nick's. We were taking art classes, only I forgot which class I was in. And this had something to do with Alpha too. I went back to my room, and apparently I was living in a room full of bunk beds with a bunch of Alpha girls (some new, some former). I had apparently put on some really dorky song in Nick's room, but it was really loud and people wanted to go to bed, so I went next door to ask him to turn it down. But it turned out that two guys I didn't know had moved there. And I also had another room somewhere in the building. So I must have gone to find Nick, and I saw Jenn and we walked around the building talking.
- I don't remember most of this dream, but I just remember driving through Monroeville (probably to a WorD meeting) and this van passed me. I looked inside and saw Emma driving and grinning at me. A bunch of Alphans were in the van, but I don't remember who else was there (except Slade). Alpha dreams rock.
- I was visiting my aunt, uncle, and cousins, and I ended up walking around in a towel that was way too small. Then I put on some clothes, and I saw Nick. We went into a room and sat on a green couch. I went to put my arm around him, but then I woke up clutching my blanket and wondering where Nick went. It was disappointing.
- I had a boat, and I was going to row it to some dock at night. Then there was some nonsense bit with a school and Derek and some other people I knew, and then a bunch of people were in this basement. Some of them had been shot and were dying, and the building upstairs was on fire. Then they killed the bad guy at the top of the stairs, and he was melting or something. Suddenly the door burst open and some little girl said she was there to make sure people were ok. Very weird.
So my sis starts high school soon. She's terrified. A few weeks ago, my dad asked me to reassure her that things would be ok, but I laughed and told him that I wasn't going to lie about it. Then he told me not to scare her. Damn. So much for telling her about the baby alligators in the plumbing and the math teachers that put hexes on you so you get your period in their class like every month. Well, actually only half of that is true. Don't ask. So what am I supposed to say? Apparently my sis is agonizing over the new social situation. She's used to being popular and stuff, but now she'll be a lowly freshman. I was always used to being at the bottom of the social totem pole, so that really didn't matter to me. Yeah, high school sucks, but it's better than middle school. And college is better than high school. She's worried about the new cliques and stuff. Well, once you find people you really click with, it doesn't really matter. I mean, I had a few good friends and other friends and acquaintances in high school... I don't know how to describe my friends group... we were pretty eclectic. But most of us were really intelligent and weird. I tend to gravitate to highly intelligent, weird-in-a-cool-way people. But college was different. You meet a lot of really nice, interesting people in college. But it took me a while to find the ones I really connected with. That happened second semester of freshman year, when I met Jen, and she got me involved in Tuesday group and Argo, the source of 75% of my college friends. And Katie... well, she pretty much fits the teen girl stereotype. And there are a lot of girls like that, and she has lots of friends and makes them easily. I'm the socially inept one, though I actually have a ton of friends, and apparently I can get over my shyness in certain situations or when I'm around certain people. Like a lot of my Alpha/Confluence/otherrelatedthings friends don't realize how pathetically shy I am, because at Alpha/Confluence/etc. I'm friendly and fun and goofy and generally don't cower away from people unless they're grownups I've never met before. That's another thing. I'm a lot less shy around the under-18 crowd, especially if they're at least a little bit weird. I get along with teenagers better than any other age group... probably because I have the mindset of one. Yeah, I'm barely out of my teens myself, but I'm technically an "adult." Ha. Me an adult. Yeah right. I'm really 12, not 21. Though apparently I've gone from looking 12 to looking 15 or 16. But anyway, I adore my younger friends. They're so much fun, so imaginative and ambitious and creative. You see, this is why I love writing young adult fiction (especially fantasy). I have the right mindset and the right friends to draw material from. When Nesset was bugging me to stay away from genre fiction (grrrr) and young characters (GRRRR), I really had a hard time with that. When I go to write a story, it's almost always from the perspective of a teenage girl (or somewhere in that range). I have a really hard time adopting an adult viewpoint. They're much more serious and kind of dull. No offense to you adults reading this, I'm just speaking of grownups in general, not the cool, weird, young-at-heart adults I'm friends with. I'm just a teenage girl at heart. But weird teenage girls seem to really like me though. *glances at about a third of her friends list* They think I'm cool and funny and interesting, and that makes me happy. And I know a lot of people like me because I make them feel funny (since I laugh at just about anything, even if it's not really funny).
Yeah, that was a long rambly paragraph. I was talking to my dad yesterday about how quiet I usually am, but he said that when I do talk, I usually have something important or interesting to say, unlike most people. Is that true? I mean, I know I occasionally get wound up and start chattering away about stupid stuff, but that's usually just when I'm excited or hyper. I sure hope I'm interesting.
And I know this is like the 3rd really long entry of the day. Sorry to clutter up your friends page. I just went through LJ withdrawal all week.
Oh, the drama. So now I'm cheating on my fake girlfriend with her brother instead of my fake girlfriend cheating on me with her brother. Gotta love those fake love triangles.
Step 1. Open whatever MP3 player you use.
Step 2. Put all your songs in and then select random.
Step 3. Write down the first ten songs it plays AND the name of a person that the song reminds you of
1. The Lion King - Be Prepared (*shrugs*)
2. Into the Woods - Lament (uh... Andy, my imaginary husband?)
3. Sesame Street - Who Are the People in your Neighborhood (*shrugs again*)
4. Cake - I Will Survive (*another shrug*)
5. Bondi Drive - Perfect Dreams (I think this was some random techno I downloaded like 3 years ago...)
6. Jimmy Buffet - Margaritaville (uh, my dad since he likes Jimmy Buffet)
7. Michael Jackson - Black or White (this guy Danny I was friends with in 3rd grade)
8. The Real Ade Conway (this was a parody of "The Real Slim Shady" that I wrote in high school and had some computer voice do...)
9. Raffi - Bumping Up and Down in my Little Red Wagon (Nick and my dad)
10. Fraggle Rock Theme (*some guy named shrug*)
Natural hair colour:: the color it is now, kind of a golden brown (NOT blond), though I plan to dye it purple soon
Eye colour: gray
Number of siblings:: 1 living sister (Katie, 14 1/2), one stillborn sister (Patricia, who'd be 16-ish), and a bunch of honorary siblings
Glasses/contacts?:: nah, I'm a two-eyed freak... I got the very recessive trait of perfect vision (this really annoys friends and family)
Piercings:: I had my ears pierced when I was 8, and when I was 18 I had multiple belly piercings (ok, so they were just appendectomy staples, but I like calling them piercings)
Tattoos:: HATE needles!
Braces?:: had them in 8th-10th grade
Band:: Hedwig and the Angry Inch, Tori Amos
Song:: Hedwig and the Angry Inch - The Origin of Love
Stuffed animal:: the smelted squid!
Video game:: Age of Mythology
TV show:: Full House
Movie:: Hedwig and the Angry Inch
Book:: Jeez, I don't know... I love so many books...
Food:: strawberry ice cream
Game on a cell phone:: I avoid cell phones. I only really played cell games once, and that was on Ben's cell when he and Nick were playing chess. I had more fun inserting random phone numbers into his address book than playing the cell games though.
CD cover:: Uh... I don't know. Tori Amos - Boys For Pele, maybe
Flower:: daisies and dandelions
Scent:: grass (as in lawn grass), vanilla
Comic book:: The Sandman, Love Hina
Cereal:: Life, Reese's Puffs
Website:: I don't know, there are a lot...
Cartoon:: Dragon Half
Play an instrument?:: I used to play a few (piano, guitar, harmonica, dulcimer), but not really well, and I hated practicing
Watch TV more than 60 hours a week?:: no, I rarely watch TV unless other people are watching it too
Like to sing?:: just when I'm by myself
Have a job?:: does "student" count?
Have a cell phone?:: no, and I don't want one
Like to play sports?:: does fencing count?
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend?:: um... kindasortamaybe? In the beginning stages of *something*
Have a crush on someone?:: yeah...
Live somewhere NOT in the united states?:: not yet
Have more than 5 TVs in your house?:: nope
Have any special talents/skills?:: yeah, a bunch of random ones like riflery, the ring-on-the-hook game at The Red Mill, and coming up with story characters almost instantly
Excercise daily?:: *laughs* I'm allergic to exercise. It's bad for my gut. *jiggles*
Like school?:: I like being at school and hanging out with my crazy, amazing friends, but I don't like going to class, writing papers at 5 am the morning they're due, and taking exams I only crammed for.
Sing the alphabet backwards?:: kinda slowly, but yes
Stand on your tip toes without wearing shoes?:: since I'm abnormally short, I do this on a regular basis. It only gives me about an inch though...
Speak any other languages?:: yeah, Spanish, though I'm forgetting it, and I used to know a bit of Latin
Go a day without food?:: been there, done that, was completely miserable
Stay up for more than 24 hours?:: been there, done that, acted like I was stoned
Read music, not just tabs?:: kinda
Roll your tongue?:: yup
Eat a whole pizza?:: as long as it has decent toppings on it and isn't just some plain cheese pizza I'll get sick of after one slice
HAVE YOU EVER
Snuck out of the house?:: no, why would I do that?
Cried to get out of trouble?:: no way, I avoid crying in front of people at all costs
Gotten lost in your city?:: yeah...
Seen a shooting star?: I doubt it
Been to any other countries besides the united states?:: yup, England, Bermuda, and Canada
Stolen something important to someone else?:: I doubt it
Solved a rubiks cube?:: nope
Gone out in public in your pajamas?:: Yeah, I'd occasionally wear pj pants to high school if I didn't have much time to change (not to mention those wear-your-pjs-to-school days), and I've been known to throw a sweatshirt on over my pjs to dash across campus to turn something in
Cried over a girl?:: only in a this-friendship-isn't-working way
Cried over a boy?:: *grumbles* yeah... stupid boys... even if they're my best friends...
Kissed a random stranger?:: noooooooo
Hugged a random stranger?:: Yeah! A few years ago at the ren fest, this guy was walking around in a dress advertising the mud wrestling or something, and I went up and asked him for a hug, and I got one. So did Megan. It was awesome.
Been in a fist fight?:: if fights with my sister count, plus that time in 7th grade where I just about got into a fight with Matt Cresto in Teen Living class...
Done drugs?:: only the medical kind for medical reasons
Had alcohol?:: yeah, but I've never really been drunk, only slightly tipsy, and I never had more than a sip or two before I turned 21 (yeah, I'm a wuss, but I really can't stand the taste of alcohol)
Laughed and had milk come out of your nose?:: Seeing as I hate milk, no. Other things like orange juice and root beer, yes.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator?:: yeah, my sis and I did that at the hotel when we went to England... so much fun...
Gone to school only to find you had the day off because of a holiday/etc?:: I almost always rode the bus, so no. Though I've gone to class in college and found it was canceled.
Swore at your parents?:: Nooooo, I keep a very clean mouth around them, because I used to get my mouth washed out with soap if I called my friend's dad "Poopy" or something. Though I've recently slipped and said "damn" or "ass" in their presence, and they didn't even flinch.
Been to warped tour?:: nope
Kicked a guy where it hurts?:: No, but I've poked them there during fencing practice by accident (even though it's a legitimate target area, and if they're smart, they wear cups). Then I promptly get all embarrassed and giggly and apologetic.
Been in love?:: judging by how badly I've been hurt by it, most likely (but at least the wounds are healing)
Been close to love?:: yup
Been to a casino?:: Nah, I'm not a gambler
Ran over an animal and killed it?:: maybe a couple bugs, but not that I know of
Had a waterballoon fight in winter?:: *adds that to her to-do list*
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour?:: ick, I hate milk
Made homemade muffins?:: mmmyes, muffins!
Bitten someone?:: yeah, I bite people every now and then
Been to disneyland/disneyworld?:: yeah, been to Disneyworld a few times (my grandparents used to live near it)
More than 5 times?:: no, I think only 3, and one of those times it was just to visit some old Connecticut friends
Been to niagra falls?:: nope
Burped in someones face?:: maybe... I sneezed on my friend Jess in 6th grade though.
Gotten the chicken pox?:: yeah, when I was 4, and I still have the scars on my belly
WHENS THE LAST TIME YOU
Brushed your teeth:: Ummm... I don't remember... yesterday? I forgot to today...
Went to the bathroom:: maybe an hour ago
Read a book:: Does manga count? If so, then yesterday.
Had a snow day:: Ha! We don't get those in college, so sometime senior year of high school. Though once last semester Prof. Rose couldn't get out of her driveway and almost had to take her husband to the hospital, so we didn't have class.
Had a party:: probably the writers' house holiday party last year
Had a slumber party:: hmmm... not counting college or having a friend over for the night, probably New Years '99?
Made fun of someone:: probably yesterday, I always make fun of my sister (it's my job)
Tripped in front of someone:: I don't know... probably in the last month, I do that quite often
Went to the grocery store:: at 6 pm today
Got sick:: I had a really minor cold after Confluence that apparently other people had too
Cursed:: I don't know... but sometime in the last week, I was turning the corner of this dusty gravel road and going a bit faster than I should have, and lost control of my car for a few seconds. I slammed on the brakes and let out some colorful words, but everything was ok, and I was just a little shaken.
Lights on/lights off:: depends on what I want to be doing
Body spray/lotion:: ewww, I don't like those things
Headache/stomach ache:: stomach ache, at least then I can get rid of it with some Pepto Bismol
Chinese food/mexican food:: Chinese
Meat/vegetarian:: I rarely eat meat, so I guess vegetarian
Boy/girl:: Mighty Hermaphrodite
French toast/french fries:: fries
Ocean/swimming pool:: ocean
p33n/bewbz:: Ohhhhh it took me a moment to get that. I like bewbz better. They're pretty.
Emo/goth:: emo boys are just sexy, but so are goth chicks, and... can I just stare at all of them?
Pink/purple:: purple... pink is EEEEEEEEEEEVIL!
Long sleeve/short sleeve:: short
Pants/shorts:: pants, and I never wear shorts
Winter break/spring break:: winter, at least I go places (this winter it's HAWAII!!!!!!!!!)
Clouds/clear sky:: clouds
How many friends do you have?:: uh... a lot?
What are their names?:: I'm not going to name all of them, that's absurd
Do you have a best friend?:: well, I kind of have an inner circle of the closest ones... Megan, Ben, Nick, and my cats
Have you ever liked one of your friends?:: oh definitely, I always fall for friends... especially two in particular... *coughs*
Do you have more guy friends or more girl friends?:: girls, though at this point I have more guy friends than I've ever had, and most of my college friends are guys
Have you ever lost a friend?:: yeah... it's the worst pain I've ever felt
Have you ever gone to an amusement park with a friend?:: yeah, but I really don't like those
Whats an inside joke between you and a friend?:: So many to choose from... ok, here's one. Cheerleaders: All of the crunch but none of the chew! (Alpha 2003)
Have you ever gotten in a big arguement with a friend?:: I will do almost anything to avoid tension of any kind... but yes. They really suck.
Whats the nicest thing youve ever done for a friend?:: I do lots of nice things for them. But I guess the most important nice things involve being there for them when they need you and just listening when they're upset and offering hugs and "I love you's"
Whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:: same as above, though everyone was really really nice to me when I had my appendix out and missed the last week of high school... it was so touching, people I didn't know very well would come up and hug me and say they hoped I felt better, my Speech and Comp class made a video for me, a lot of people signed cards and stuff, people came to visit me... it was just amazing. I've never felt so loved in my entire life.
Do you miss any of your old friends?:: yeah... lots of them
What friend have you known the longest?:: Of the good friends I still talk to on a regular basis, probably Megan, we've been pals since we were 13.
Do you regret anything youve done to a friend?:: yeah, lots of things... throwing tennis balls at Megan in gym class in 8th grade before I actually met her, making fun of Nick's story about the uncle molesting the boy (I had no idea it hurt him so much until he told me over a year later), etc.
If so, what is it?:: *pokes above response*
How often do you spend time with your friends?:: as much as possible
Do any of your friends drive?:: yeah, most of the friends over 18 do
Has a friend of yours ever died?:: do pets count?
Whats the dumbest thing youve done with a friend?:: fooling around repeatedly without knowing where we stood... yep, that really ended up hurting a lot...
What do you think your friends think of you?:: I think most of them think I'm nice and funny and crazy in a cool way
LOVE AND ALL THAT CRAP
Have you ever been in love?:: We've been over this. Yes, I suppose so. As Hedwig said, "that's the pain that cuts a straight line down to the heart, we call it love."
If you have, with who?:: *sigh* the Nick child...
Are you single?:: eh... maybe. I'm in the beginning stages of something, I guess.
Are you in a relationship?:: We're starting over, seeing if we can work things out this time.
If so, for how long?:: Well, we agreed to start things over a few days after Confluence, so... a few weeks?
Do you believe there is someone for everyone?:: well, there are a bunch of potential matches that could really work out...
What is your idea of the best date?:: getting ice cream, going on a walk somewhere, going to a playground at night, then going somewhere private and cozy for lots of cuddling
What was your first kiss like?:: It was Halloween, and Nick and I were hanging out in my room in the wee hours, after all the festivities. We were drinking tea, playing with Dude, and cuddling, and it sort of gradually happened. It was soft and innocent, and kind of lazy since it was late and we were both tired. But it was exciting and nice.
How old were you when you got your first kiss?:: Heh... 20. This happened 9 1/2 months ago.
Do you think love is a load of shit?:: no, I take it very seriously
Whats the best experiance youve ever had with the opposite sex?:: just cuddling and feeling happy and loved
If you are single, have you had any boyfriends/girlfriends before?:: none before, just ambiguous friendships (ambiguity really sucks)
Have you ever been dumped?:: no, just rejected
Have you ever dumped someone?:: no, though I've done the rejecting a few times... it's not easy to say "Sorry, I'm just not interested" or "Sorry, it just wouldn't work out."
Whats the most sexual thing youve done with the opposite sex?:: I'd rather not share that. I've never told anyone what happened, and I think it should remain between Nick and me (though he talked to Anne about it, and that's fine with me).
Slippers:: bunny slippers
Good Charlotte:: CD
Cord:: gold (?)
Hardcore:: porn (shut up)
want:: to be with friends again
need:: to look up flat-panel monitors
crave:: ramen while watching Naruto
love:: my friends
hate:: tension and drama
feel:: hungry again
miss:: my friends
am annoyed by:: people like Eddie, Nesset, and my sister
would rather:: be with my friends right now
am tired of:: summer
will always:: be short!
What is your favourite genre of music?:: eh, my tastes are eclectic
What time is it now?:: 11:37
What day is it?:: Monday (I'm waiting for the silliness to begin... 3 questions in, and there's no silliness yet)
Whens the last time you called someone?:: Oh boy... two weeks ago? It was probably Megan.
How much money do you have right now?:: Like 40 bucks in my wallet, plus all the stuff in the bank
Are you hungry?:: yeah, I didn't have much for dinner, I should get a snack soon
Whatcha doin?:: listening to The Forbidden Zone soundtrack and filling out this endless survey I swiped from D
Do you like parades?:: only if they're particularly interesting and involve drag queens or something
Do you like the moon?:: so beautiful...
What are you going to do when youre done with this?:: click "post" and then go get something to eat
Isnt cup a funny word when you repeat it over and over?:: sure
If you could have any magical power what would it be?:: flying!
Have you ever had a picnic?:: yup
Are you wearing any socks right now?:: nope, as my sister says, "I'm wearing bare feet!"
DO YOU THINK YOU ARE
funny?: not particularly, but other people seem to think I'm hilarious, so I guess I am
lazy?:: they have a special place in the sloth area of hell for me
friendly?:: when I'm in a good mood and with other people I know fairly well
smart?:: yeah, but the IQ test says I'm smarter than I think I am
strong?:: yeah, pretty strong for someone of my size and habits, actually
talented?:: in some areas
dorky?:: I'm just adorkable
FOR OR AGAINST
suicide:: against in most cases, but on the other hand... if you're really suffering, like from something that is never going to heal, sometimes it's better to just end it
love:: for, even if it is a bowl of pain
drunk drivers:: against
war:: war is stupid
canada:: *sings* Blame Canada! Uh... Canada is ok, I guess
united states:: It's ok
rock music:: it's nice to drive or make art to
gay marriage:: for
school:: a necessary evil
surveys:: they're a hopeless addiction
cars:: we should just get wings and use them
killing:: killing = bad, unless it's necessary, like for food or defense
britney spears:: eh, I'm not a fan
coffee:: I hate the stuff unless it's mixed with a good dose of chocolate
pants:: I heart pants!
WOULD YOU EVER
Sky dive?:: if it was available and free, and someone would dive with me
Play strip poker?:: noooo, but it's fun to watch (except when Garth is playing and violates the keep-your-undies-on rule...)
Run away?:: I've thought about it, but I wouldn't know where to go or what to do
Curse at a teacher?:: Maybe once I graduate, I'll tell Nesset to go fuck himself.
Not take a shower for a week?:: I could, but I wouldn't because then I'd pull my hair out a lot more and I'd feel grimy and disgusting
Ask someone out?:: I'm romantically challenged, so no
Lie to someone to make them think better of you?:: I avoid lying, and I'm horrible at it anyway
Visit a foreign country for more than a month?:: depends on the country and who's with me
Go scuba diving?:: yeah, I've done that in... 4 feet of water in a swimming pool
Write a book?:: I'm not a creative writing major because I don't want to have a high-paying job in the future...
Become a rockstar?:: no
Have casual sex?:: no way, unless it was with a good friend and we were friends with benefits or something
What shampoo do you use?:: uh, whatever is cheap... right now it's this raspberry Suave stuff
Whens the last time you did something sexual with the opposite sex?:: Well, I'm a virgin, so I've never had sex... but if "sexual" includes making out (hey, it can be very erotic), then a few months ago... maybe the end of April
What kind of computer do you have?:: a custom-made PC named Damnyou
What grade are you in?:: going into 16th grade (aka senior year of college)
Do you like to throw popcorn at people in the movies?:: no, that's a waste of popcorn
Or just make out?:: Never made out in a movie theatre before, and I'd rather not do that anywhere public, thankyouverymuch.
How many posters do you have in your room?:: 7, I think
How many cds do you have?:: too many, I don't know
What time is it now?:: 11:47 pm, and I've been filling this thing out for hours. Yes, I'm that bored.
Phew, it's over.