today was pretty unproductive, but i got a couple cards to send to people. yay. i talked to my mom, sister, and laura on the phone too. when i got back from dinner, i got a message from my sister. i guess i should be cleaning my room, since there's junk all over the place. it's lonely without my mannequin.
my nana just got out of the hospital, since she had some fluid in her lungs and one collapsed. she has lung cancer. a year ago, she was in great shape for an 80-year-old woman, and now she's dropped to 100 pounds, she's bald, and her condition is rapidly deteriorating. it's just sad seeing her like that, and pop pop isn't doing any better. he's having all sorts of hernia complications. every time i see them, i feel like it's the last time i'll ever see them. i doubt they'll both live more than 3 or 4 more years. this might sound wrong, but i hope they just pass on soon. i hate seeing them in such pain, and they're not healing very much. they're good grandparents, and it's wrong for them to be suffering so much. it's time to move on.
this is why smoking is bad. lung cancer kills. nana quit smoking a long time ago, but even now the effects are killing her. thanks a lot, tobacco industry! you're killing my grandmother, who did nothing wrong! bastards!
oh well. i'm going to send her a card. goodbye.
"Don't call me cuz you'll be wasting all your money when you should be wasting Mom's money."
-katie on my voice mail